Crossfit Open 16.2 Scaled - Moving Weight

Well what can I say. This Open has been a weird one for me....yep we are only 2 down...but for some reason in my mind I get worked up so much about the workouts and I have a slight anxiety attack. I thought Crossfit was meant to be fun. I know I will never make it to regionals and I know I will always be at the bottom of the leader board, I don't know why I'm taking it so seriously.

I sat there waiting for my turn and cheering on others...but I really wanted to grab my shit and walk the hell out of there and come back again when it was quieter so maybe do it on Monday morning with only 2 other people in the box. Coach Ellz was like "Right show me your knee raises..." I showed her she was like "do your single unders" I done em and she was like "lets see your squat"...I done them. She was then like "ok cool this is what you'll do and if you need to redo it then you can do it on Monday." I was like "err if I do do it tonight I'm only getting 1 round" Well wasn't I the pessimistic one...I only went and got past the first round and into my second round and finished at 9 squat cleans...Only 3 more to reach the 3rd round....so close so freaking close!!!

What does that mean? That means I'm going to try it again on Monday morning. Oh yes I am and I'm going to try and smash it!! All I want to do is get to the third round and attempt the 43kg squat clean...heck knows I may get it. This means this weekend it's all about buckling down clean eating and getting some fitness in. In terms of pacing I need to stop holding on to the bar saying "omg it's so heavy" plus I need to stop muscling the bar up and power cleaning it...but try and get under it just a smidgen. When I do the knee raises I always hesitate before starting them off...why only God knows.

I was happy with my finish today but Naz...who proper smashed it came up to me and said she was disappointed in her performance. It's funny because from where I standing huffing and puffing she was going for it...I'm not sure of her score but she did have a tear in her eye. I said to her I was in the same place last week and not to be too hard on herself. She said "I can't believe I could pick up 43kgs" In my mind it got me thinking...bloody hellfire 43kgs is a lot some people will go most their lives not being able to pick that shit up and we are moving the weight so quickly like it is nothing. We put way too much pressure on ourselves...why do we do this? If someone can answer that for me then that would be grand.

sidebar: I am a broken woman and my mobility is shot to pieces but tonight I PB'd all over myself and popped it on the PB white board...I finally got my squats to be below Parallel. Going back to 14. 5 those thursters were a killer and I got no repped a million times that wod took me 1:31:38 (Dave Castro said the clock will not save you and it did not) So I am making progress. Coach Ellz looked like she was going to cry cos she has been working with me and my mobility. I told her it's the knee pads I bought last week...she says no but I now the truth it's the knee pads :) #oldladybeastintraining

Crossfit Open 16.1 Scaled redo

So a little update. This morning I woke dreaming about the release of 16.2...when I realised it was only Monday I cursed and then my thoughts went back to 16.1...yep I defo could not have done it any better....but just maybe I could have done the RX walking lunges and the over the bar burpees and leave the jumping pullups as it would take me the 20mins to do the lunges at 29kgs.
I went to the box. And Coach Ellz sat me down and had a word...she said if the only reason I want to try and do the RX score is to negate my scaled score as I wasn't happy with it then not to try it. But if I was happy with my scaled score and was just curious to see how far I could go then to go for it.
Me and my stubborn ways was still unhappy with the scaled score...and attempted to Over Head Lunge a PVC pipe, the 8kgs bar, then 15kg and I got stuck at 20kgs...29kgs was going to hurt and I was just being foolish. In the end. I ended up re-doing 16.1 but used the 8kg bar and over head squatted that sh*!t!!!

I powered on through and at the end of it all I got a total of 117 reps...my twisted little mind was happier with this score as I had over head lunged. It was tough but I got it done.

Now the question is will I be able to walk tomorrow :)

Crossfit Open 16.1 Scaled

I don't think I have ever been so disappointed in myself when it comes to a wod. The funny thing is in my head I was aiming for 5 rounds but when I got to the box and saw that most everyone who had done the scaled version of the wod were at 8 rounds and above I said to myself "ok you'll get 6 and a little something something."

I was terrified of the walking lunges cos my mobility is so shot that when I lunge with a weight it starts of with 5kgs and then drops down to 2.5kgs. So 15kgs is a jump that I thought would never be doable. After Olympic Lifting class in the morning I attempted the 15kgs...not bad not bad at all...I was a little winded when I walked the 25feet but yeah that was defo doable, I felt semi good about it. So the plan was to just keep moving and rest for 5 sec max if I needed it. but take it slow. Dave told me to look at it as chunks and focus on each movement and put it behind me once done.

I'm not going to go into the nitty gritty, but when all was said and done and I was told what I got I burst in to tears...simply because I felt like I had let myself down even though I felt like I had worked my butt off...I was a tad bit confused to say the least.

Coach Ellz  no repped me 4 times on the jumping pullups, once on the walking lunges, and once on the burpees. I simply walked over the bar instead of jumping (proper brain fart). The Burpee no rep was the only one I was mad at cos that defo could have been prevented.

Now 5 hours later I'm still gutted with my 5 rounds 11reps score but looking back I couldn't have done it any quicker...I only rested for a few secs to catch my breathe on the pullups but other than that I was constently moving.

If tomorrow I wake up and feel the need to do it again I will and honestly I may take my pullups a tad bit slower so I don't get no repped and maybe that will bump me up a little bit.

But at the same time I'm thinking if I hadn't seen any of the scaled scores on the whitebord then maybe just maybe I would be ecstatic with my 141reps. After all that's 5 rounds and 11 bonus points.

Bring on 16.2

101 Down: Why??? Because you have to show up for one extra class

# of yoga classes taken since Sept: 101
# of doubles: approx 15
# of triples: 1
# of times I did my laundry: countless


So last night I finally did my 101 class. According to the definition of the 101 day yoga challenge you do   

101-Days because you just have to show up for one extra day.

and basically in my mind it's because you can...what is one extra day after all is said and done?

I loved every minute of it and even though the last two weeks have been grueling practicing yoga every day and having some doubles thrown in...it has been so worth it. My body is so sore and I LOVE IT!!!

Last night in class Kate said I was an inspiration...which in my mind is laughable cos I'm far from inspiring. I started to think of what inspired me to get this done...Firstly my cousin Sue who is just an all round inspiration. She got me into this Bikram yoga malarkey and I truly love her for it. We live parallel lives on opposite sides of the earth and we often find that we have been doing and discovering things at the same time...Bikram was one thing that she gently nudged me towards and her gentle persistence finally worked.

When I first attended the studio the lovely Steve was just finishing his 101 challenege. Dude he made it real for me...he is so serene and always has a smile on his face...we got to talking and he told me he finished his challenge early!!! Lets just say when he told me what day he finished on my jaw dropped and my mind started working over time wondering if I could do the same... This dude is my hero nuff respect to him.

The lovely Claire and Joe the cutest couple on earth finished their 100 day challenge last week Friday in Paris...totally romantic. In my mind they held hands during the final savasana....err what can I say I'm a hopeless romantic.


Now I'm sitting here wondering what is next...I've been lovingly banned from the studio for a few days in order to rest up and will be back next week Thursday. This is a good thing because I know that my body needs to rest up and process the changes that are taking place from within. Unfortunately with the Christmas season I'm scared I may do more damage than good...I will show restraint....I will continue to blog but not as often. And I may even do another challenge God willing...but I think that once you have done 101 you stop counting and just keep going.

sidebar: I never got my forehead to my knee in standing separate leg head to knee pose..but I know I will one day.

100 Down: I'm Blessed and I'm Prettier

This morning was my 100th day!!!! I can't believe it y'all I can't believe I actually did 100 yoga sessions in the hot room...in 99 days!!! CAN I GET AN AMEN THANK YOU JESUS!!!! CAN I GET A WHOOP WHOOP. AH SHOOT LET'S JUST THROW A PARTY!

Class this morning was, simply put, AMAZING!!

On my 82nd class, the day I went back after the man flu,  the lovely Claire said "tell me when you get to 100 so I can come and practice with you". I almost cried when she said that. And true to her word she was there at 630 this morning along with her hubby Dennis. It was such a beautiful gesture and it meant so much to me. They got me a card and some spa magik dead sea bath salt...They so did not have to do that because it was more than enough being in class with me at that ungodly hour...I will never forget this until the day I die. I will be using the bath salt to soak in with my favourite glass of red wine tomorrow night. Claire has been a real inspiration from my first entering the Bikram studio she has always had a word of encouragement and her muscles are to die for...she says she only does bikram so there is hope for my arms yet.

I'm so grateful to everyone at Bikram Yoga Chiswick everyone there feels like family and I have so much love for them. Thank you for encouraging me and for helping me finish the challenge as you know how important it is for me not to fail this. It is true what they say: "how you deal with the situation in the room is how you deal with life." Many a time it was a struggle and I felt like giving up. But I saw it through with my own persistence and with the help of everyone there who cheered me on. What you put in to life and in yoga is what you get out of it. So here's hoping for that major positive shift in my life that I have been longing for for the longest time.

I definitely am feeling the effects of the last 100 sessions and all I can say is BOO YA!!!!!

Physically I am starting to get muscle in my arms. I've always hated my arms and always wear long sleeves even in the hottest summer. Come next summer I will be able to show them off next year.

People have said I look smaller...I don't really see it. I am going by the scale, which is bad I know. I'm not too happy with the numbers.  I hadn't seen a friend of mine since the beginning of the challenge and she said I do look smaller and my arms are getting defined (ever so slightly but the definition is there).

People also say my skin is glowing which makes me smile. I don't really wear makeup so this is good cos I really can't be arsed dealing with foundation and crap...Bring on the natural glow.

I have also noticed people smile at me when I'm walking down the street. The lovely Laura said it is because there is an internal light in  me that is shining through...so imma let this little light of mine shine

Mentally I am STRONGER...granted I get Bikram brain every now and again but I don't feel as depressed as I did before I started.

I used to have little panic attacks and dwell on stuff making my situation feel worse then it was...now I deal with it or let it go. Once in a while I do dwell on stuff but definitely not as much as before.

I have a voice now. Before I really didn't have the confidence to say what I felt...I now know that my opinion counts and I know that I am important if I wasn't I wouldn't be on this earth. End of story.


Spiritually there has been movement and I feel more in tune with the Creator. I haven't stepped foot into church since way before July to the disappointment of some people and I don't feel bad about that. The yoga has been my meditation with God as He made me and dwells within me showing me what I am capable of. I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

95 Down: It's all about savasana baby

The last week I've been taking full advantage of the final savasana and all I have to say today is this:
If I could bottle up the final savasana and sell it I'd be rich and there would be no war. 

Taking the extra minutes I have realised that the healing truly comes from that stillness...Not only does your body cool down but it has given my body a chance to really recognise what the last 90mins were about and do it's cellular level work. Plus I kind of feel all high and go of into a litte dream world. LOVE IT!!!!

 

 

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91 92 93 94 Down: The best weekend

I have had the most amazing weekend and it was all Bikram related surrounded by genuine people I love with all my heart.

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Friday for my 91st class I went to Brighton and practiced at Bikram in the Lanes, alongside Caroline a dear friend of mine. I was scared I wasn't going to do well and had a minor panic attack on the way up but it was fine...I did enjoy it but there is no place like home. The rest of the day was spent eating the most delicious raw food...life could not have been any better thanks Caroline.

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I had a revelation in class. This year I HATE CHRISTMAS!!!  Towards the end of class the lovely Andy made a comment about Christmas, in my mind I said "fuck christmas!" and burst into tears. Yesterday was the first time I acknowledged to myself that I'm not happy about not going home (Zimbabwe) for the holidays. It's about family not loneliness.
 Saturday night was Bikram Yoga Chiswick's christmas party and it was lush. Yes I got drunk as I have no control when it comes to alcohol. But it was gooooooddddd!!!!! There was ZUMBA it was amazing and every single person who attends BYC is lush  I LOVE EACH AND EVERYONE!!!! Nope I'm not still drunk.

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0640 woke up hungover
0725 dragged my carcass out of bed
0800 left  home
0845 walked into the building saw the lovely Shvorne at reception and just shook my head.
0900 I was in class!
I honestly thought it was going to be like my red wine saturday where I felt it was pointless being in class but it wasn't. It felt like the best hangover cure in the world. I was so transformed I did a back to back double and I LOVED IT!!!!!

I discovered a way to love on my tummy... I am holding a grudge against my belly for not being smaller. Caroline suggested that I love on my tummy. And today it happened. I was meant to be standing with my hands down by my side but for some reason they were on my belly and the next thing I knew I had formed the heart symbol... just over my belly button...tiny steps to acknowledging my belly.